Consciousness and pain

This one has a vague meaning but a important message ,that again is quite vague..

I cant change
No matter how hard I try 
But I never wanted to lie
My mind has broken from sanity
As I bathe in the vanity
All my brain is but a note 
A little line that you wrote 

All my life was dedicated to the clouds 
But they say I think out too loud
I only asked for your love 
As you flew away like a dove 
I tried to feel the joy 
As they treat me like a toy 
 
My note is a hoax 
Its a fake but you already know
Nobody ever put into consideration 
The lack of liberation 
That we kill 
Our dreams 
We don't feel
You Never fulfilled
That hope that you killed
But now you think you're healed 
Cause you kept your lips sealed 
With the message they reveal

Well i'm showing you 
Well i'm telling you 
to live that pain 
Or what else can you gain 
If you are still ashamed 
Then I'm to Blame...

Author's Note

This one felt more lyrical as I wrote it but thats how most of my poems feel when I write so if this isn't very fluent then I apologize but I needed to make this one..
There were too many ideas and/or verses that I came up with but this was the best I could make match up with the mood I wanted to portray..