Too Young

I had an innocent mind,
An untouched body
Until the day I screamed 'No'
I was too young to know
What it meant to be shoved onto a bed

At 6 years old my first kiss was by a curious girl
No one knew I told her to stop
I was too ashamed to tell
For four years I continued to be tested
Before I was 16, nearly every touch felt like I was being molested

I was the only one who knew the truth
The assaulter's parents couldn't even look the me in the eyes
They just thought I might not like guys
If they only knew what their daughter had done to me

They'll never know my secret
My faultless discovery
That my self hatred started when I begged someone to quit
It's not always men who touch roughly

Author's Note

Ive always denied that i was sexually abused until now and it was a huge realization of mine. Also the reason I wrote this was because women(mostly) and men need to realize not everyone is sexually assaulted by a man. Women do it too. And I'm sick of women thinking men are the scource for all our problems when each gender is equally at fault. Thanks for reading

Reviews

[WillGrant]

Very powerful poem. It's interesting how adults remember their childhood as a happier time and safe. But as I think back now that's when I was the weakest and the most open. Things that happened then were brushed off and not understood. But if they happened today my world would flip upside down. Thanks for putting that into perspective for me. And thanks for sharing.

[revalatia]

this is true.. ---and even worse -when gender aside, the predators pose as a family with Christian values. ..--humiliation is painful too...thanks for your honesty..

[aLittlePain]

Powerful, confronting and dare I say it healing.

Thank you for sharing.

Regards
Rach

[??????]

That was very deep my friend yet sad too. I am so sorry that had to happen to you.

[Dark Poet]

It's okay. I've learned to move on and entrust myself in those who proven their love

[??????]

I hear ya my friend:)

[wizardlypoet8]

This is really deep and I love how personal you got. I think its great to share stuff like this. You need to get it out of your head. Im sorry this happened

[Riley]

it is hard to think that a female can do the same damage in that way, its hard on victims, trust me....i know...You are not alone, but your writing is beautiful and dark and honest. I love all of those especially when wrapped up into one

[Bohrium Guy]

Your scope and emotions on this subject stand out in this write. I feel you did an excellent job of putting a one-sided view to a better open version of reality. This is an excellent read and write. Thank you so much for sharing.

~Rob~

[Dark Poet]

Thank you for the kind review

[Bohrium Guy]

Your very welcome, keep up the good work!

[78Jon]

Wow. Deep poem. I've been sexually abused too and the f*****g adults thought it was cute and funny.

[Dark Poet]

Thank you. I'm sos orry that happened. Ao many people dont take it seriously

[78Jon]

They don't. Heck, in certain places in Afganistan it is the culture for the men to sexually abuse the young boys. A Green Beret faces punishment (I think discharge) for slamming and supposedly kicking (That's how I understood it, he slammed the guy a few times and kicked him) because the Afgani guy molested a young boy and beat the woman for opening her mouth about it. Even our government has told our soldiers to turn their backs on the culture over there (allowing the men to abuse the kids/women).

[Dark Poet]

That is terrible...what some men and women allow. I dont care if it is someone culture or country, it isnt right to treat anyone with such horrible disrespect

[Relic]

This is shocking to read and compelling at the same time. When the words rape or molested are mentioned, most often assume it was by a male. Reading this will open people's eyes to the fact (in a serious way) that woman can also be the assailants.

You don't mention her age but I'm guessing she was years older than you at the time. Abusers never think that such an act will be remembered years and years later because the child is so young but the seeds of rage and anger from being assaulted in such a way are never forgotten and only grow.

Some men have killed their abusers decades later. I'm sorry to hear you had to go through such a terrible time in your life. You're very brave for sharing your thoughts.

[Dark Poet]

Thank you. And all of thisnis true. And im glad you have recognized the truth. And actually she was only a little older than i was but it went on for so long. Neithe rof us knew better

[Insight "MH"]

I am sorry for what happened to you, it is sad when children see the ugly part of life before they become mature. children should live in innocence, but that innocence may die someday because of a cruel world they live in. Women and men are all required to respect the natural way of things, not harming their humanity with filth.

Insight.

[Dark Poet]

Yes I agree. Thank you very much for your reviews