Who Is This?

A poem about putting yourself aside.

As a living, breathing, human being. I am free. As a law abiding citizen, politically, I am free. I choose where I live, where I work, who, how, and where I love. Socially, I am free:
Here, here in this place, I am not free.

Young and beautiful
Alive and electric
Soul surpassing age
A personality eclectic

Creative and happy
Thoughtful and brave
Compassionate and true
Yet merely a slave

I only see four walls
Never outside fire
I envy those who live
But it's a sin to desire

A relationship like a cage
Covered with a sheet of love
Masked from the outside world
Leaving these walls-unheard of

I often sit in silence
I wait til he's asleep
To write, to breathe, to dream
Because nothing's mine to keep

I honestly love so sincere
That I'm afraid to let it go
But I miss the person I was
And hate the self I've come to know.

Reviews

[Scott Thompson]

Enjoyable perspective on the most human of conditions...self-loathing. Keep working!

[AaronFreitas]

I love all your descriptions in this write... great work :)

[Justin]

this is great! i like your bio i also feel the same way about myself. keep up the good work!

[sinNsincerity]

Wow, really deep and a nice way to let the reader into you conscience Lilly!