Falling In Love

I was afraid of falling in love with you.
That's why I muted your Instagram stories, because I know that I can't hold myself back, from sending a message just to talk to you.

I was so afraid of falling in love with you.
That's why I try to distance myself from
The friend group that we share,
because everytime you are there,
my heart won't stop pounding, butterflies
filled my stomach till I can't breathe properly.

I was so afraid of falling in love with you.
So everytime we meet, accompanied by our friends,
I'd always sit on the opposite side of the table, and everytime I feel your gaze in my direction, longer than a fraction of a second.
I always would avert mine, because I know once I look at your beauty, there's no where else I'd rather stare at.

I was so goddamn afraid of falling in love with you.
That everytime you're near I always blush.
And trying to make up excuses to run away.
But at the same time excuses of why I should stay
and strike a conversation, confess my confession
explaining all the reason, of why you should be in my possession.

And the reason why I was so scared of falling in love with you, is because I know someone like you, wouldn't be interested in someone like me.
Someone who's so possessive and jealous, from your small interaction with others.
Someone who's not tough nor strong, but instead is interested in poems and songs.
Someone whose fashion is from the 90's, who roleplays in public and scream when they sneeze.
Someone who's so clingy and needy, when you have free time he'd come from the corner and say "Me!".

But the truth is that someone has already fallen in love with you.
With a silent wish that you'd fall in love with him too.