Here's a Sensu Bean

i think i'm feeling something

repression turns to tension in my shoulders

bags from sadness, getting older

learned the world is so much colder than I ever could imagine

they don't like me, i'm alone. 

they don't like me, i left home at only 17 in search of something out of reach. 

I'm back now

they think i'm on the attack now

i'm not bitter, i'm just wiser 

that's why I sleep with one eye open 

i think i'm quite delusional

i'm still stuck in high school, you know?

i think i'm still a kid

minus the bills

minus how big I am

I want someone to remind me who I am

been a while since I had a man.

Or a woman. 

I'll take both, anything to stroke my ego

anything to keep me from singing those real notes

someone to help me play it safe

like sopranos in the alto section

Inspired by my last rejection

Here's my attempt at resurrection.