The Emboldening State

If she ends up getting to me and taking me out
Please don’t grieve me
I think I’m a little discouraged from this whole thing
Discourage is not a good enough word
Broken is not the word either
I want her to take me
Take me away from here please
Send in your best men and your most elaborate plan
I won’t make it hard
I wont resist it
I’ll pick the location
And we can just get this over with
I think the earth would feel different without me
Some people would feel remorse
Some would realize I wasn’t so bad after all
The difference?
I won’t have to wait on that day anymore
I wouldn’t have to wait for the day where I become more tolerable
I won’t have to wait for people to give me the okay to breathe, and stretch, and exist like I belong here
So if she wants to take me out
Or he
Or they
Or whoever is causing this dismay
It’s okay
Let them.