The Elaborate Plan to Break Her

I have always hated my mom
I’m sure she has always hated me too
And one day, I grew tired in battle
Depression kicked in an took over
And I had no energy left to fight her
No energy to be tense around her
No energy to protect myself from her anymore
It was 2pm on a weekday
I was staying up through the night
Fighting demons
Insomnia got the best of me
Until I became too tired to be so guarded
I passed out midday
Didn’t even tuck myself into the covers like I usually do
I spread out like a star fish
I didn’t care about the nightmares, or the demons, or even her mean words anymore
I was fed up
And that was probably some of the best sleep in my life
When she came home, she asked me if I felt better
I asked her how she knew
She told me, because I was finally vulnerable for once.
She could tell by the way I didn’t bother to cover myself.

I remember when Dylan and I were having problems
I didn’t want to sleep with him anymore
I drank myself into oblivion to deal with my fear of confrontation
My fear of a breakup
My fear of telling him that I didn’t feel the same way anymore
He was pushy
I think he knew where things were going
But he didn’t care
He pretended things were fine
We continued to go through the motions
Until one day, I came back black out drunk
And truly gave no f***s
And I walked past him
And plopped on to the bed with my shoes on
When I woke up, my shoes were off
And I was tucked in
And he was sitting beside me
He asked me if I felt better
I asked him how he knew
He said he could tell I got good sleep
I was vulnerable since I practically forgot to take off my shoes
He was right
They were both right.

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

Two people in your life recognized your vulnerability. That tells me that they must have cared to be able to do that. They taught you something about yourself that you didn’t know. I enjoyed the read.

Chris

[The_Ancient_Rock]

huh... yeah...

Very good story.

Good writing.

Blessed be!!!

;)