It's Just A Down Day

It’s hard not being able to talk to my parents, to my friends, to my siblings.

My parents don’t have enough time to listen, their too busy yelling at each other and being angry with me.

My friends are halfway across the world and because of the lawsuit I can’t say anything to them in written text.

My brothers will just tell me to get used to it or tell me they’ve been through worse.

I miss MMM hugging me.

I miss NON telling me how useless I am.

I miss SSS's laugh.

I miss KAK's wild skirts and fun personality.

I suppose I didn’t realize I HAD people to talk to, I HAD people that were my friends. 

The thing I regret most is not acknowledging them and appreciating them enough, because if I had I wouldn’t be here.

NNN would have left the school, she said it herself, I wouldn't have to suffer through the pointless, scary “I’m gonna kill myself” messages.

I’m stuck on this, the things I’m writing about, I’ll forget it soon or get over it.

I know it’s just one of my down days.