I'm sorry

I apologize to all those who thought they knew me.
I present myself as a mere shadow of my true being.
I silently watch over everyone, being the guardian angel of sorts.
I stand in the background and when I disappear I hear the whispers,
asking if someone is missing.
I calmly listen to all your drunken love tirades,
not with the girls, but sitting before the toilet saying
"You know man, I love you."

I present myself as a caring friend,
a responsible adult,
a good buddy,
a polite co-worker,
and a helpful stranger.

While it may seem I am all of those,
I am none.
I am selfish.
I simply don't want to see another friend die needlessly.
I act the way I do so I wont have to feel pain.

Reviews

[Courtney]

these are my favorite kinds of poems, they kind that people write but don't tell. you are obviously a great writer. i'm seriously impressed. i can't wait to read more.

[Leigha Hoffner]

Thank you for the submission. you showed true honesty about the pain of losing people and the hurt you have been through. good job. thanks

[Poeticpiers]

No man is an ilsand sufficient unto himself. You may try to be uninvolved but you cannot
Life is inextricably intertwined with other lives.
We play many roles and often have an effect which we can never know impacting on other lives All we can do is trust our instincts