Ignored Want

Tucked under a blanket, curled up strong and helpless
Strikes of pain drill far into my heart
My mind is going crazy because it knows i'm breaking a part
It knows what path i'm going down and what i'm about to do
I can' t break the thought of love, all crippled and gone
And I stand here confused. . remembering all the feelings and all the beautiful times
Maybe I just don' t belong where I am..
Maybe every thing's a terrible crime ..
For I feel it crash , I feel it burn..
And I can' t find a way to turn..
So conflicted , so miss-understood
If I only I could..if only I could..
Why does my heart keep on wanting and then running away?
If only today as good as yesterday...
The prayer of suffering leaks out from under my soul
In desperation, in wanting to be whole..