This I Want

I never want to let go,

but I don't want to waste my time.

I don't want to lose hope,

but I never want to be let down.

I want to live in the moment,

but I also want to live for the future.

I want to be content,

but I never want to lose my questioning.

I want to change who I am,

but I always want to be me.

I want to abandon,

but I want to keep my faith.

I want to forget,

but I always want to remember.

I want to be happy,

but I never want to forget pain.