Preaching

Where can I preach
My sins in silence?
The noise is too much.
Darkness looms as
My head beings to clear.
What is it
That you want to hear?

I love, but
I was once absorbed
With hate.
I care, but
Sometimes I can't.

Who am I to live
With such hidden hurt?
Hidden rage?

Dear Pastor,
I can't, don't want
To hurt anymore.