Lost Forever?

I feel dazed,

But can't sleep.

The drink here is 

Keeping me awake.

I have a name,

Just can't remember it.

How special am I 

Compared to you?

I've been fading for

Much a longer time.

I have nothing left.

I can barely think

When I'm constantly reeling.

These cards control me:

Drink or stay sober?

I always lose.

Too drunk to think.

Too drunk to see straight.

Would you deny it 

If I told you the truth?

I see no light,

Am I lost forever?