Those Words

Before we left,
we spoke those words.
Words are awful,
such a private thing.
We swore we would never tell.
He thinks I'm okay with this.
I'm not okay with this.
I don't know
how to speak to you.
Tell me everything
you've ever said.
From the beginning and
end with the truth.
Before we left,
we spoke those words.
But what did they mean?