The Year of 2018

Today is the last day of 2018 and my, what a year it has been!

A lot has occurred in my life and I've decided to reflect on it all with you, whoever stumbles upon this...

To start everything off--I successfully got myself out of a toxic, emotionally abusive relationship with someone I was dating for 2 and a half years. Right off the bat, I should've known it wasn't going to end in a fairytale...many told me he cheats and uses people to get what he wants...turns out he cheated on me multiple times (while I was with him), he sexually abused me over and over (even if I didn't want to) and he would always talk down to me. He would rarely let me see my family or friends. He always assumed I was cheating on him when HE was the one cheating on ME. He would constantly go through my phone, messages, all that. Anyway, to end it all, I found out that he took an 11 minute video of his neighbors 13-year old daughter in the shower. Once my parents found out, they came up to get me and bring me home. Turns out, he only got 2 years probation (if he gets in no trouble for 2 years, all charges against him get dropped). For the following six months, I blocked him on all social media, blocked his number, cut off all forms of contact...but he continued to call me multiple times a day and try to contact me. As of a few weeks ago, I am no longer being stalked or harassed by this piece of trailer trash!

In the process of my breakup, my best friend of 8 years decided to block me on all forms of social media. She told me how horrible of a friend I was to her (when she was actually the selfish and condescending one towards me) and how she's done with trying to have any type of friendship with me. It still hurts me to this day, but I figured there would be a time which we would have to go our separate ways in life and not have to depend on each other anymore. 

I quit my old job which became toxic to my life and found a new job 3 months later, which I have now been employed at for almost 2 months now. It is a way more positive environment, with people who are jolly and actually have personalities. Thanks to this new job, I have become more comfortable and happy with myself and who I am. I am not afraid of what people think of me and I understand how to put boundaries between those who make me uncomfortable. 

In all, this year has been a rollercoaster...but it's all been worth it. I am thankful to finally be able to spend quality time with my family and myself and see what better things come for me in the future. I have been writing more and not so lazy. I've been more upfront about talking about how I feel to people when they ask and I've been learning how to ask for help when I need it most. 

I wish everyone a healthy and Happy New Year!

Cheers to putting the past behind us & moving on to better opportunities! 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Happy New year dear friend. I wish you happiness and great success in 2019. Have some fun and travel.
Coyote