Apology and Portray

I am sorry

For craving to be normal.

I want to be

Just like everyone else.

But should I be doing it this way?

I am scared for what this will bring me.

This way,

I am unique.

I have my own escape.

Something to call "my own"

and claim it as "mine".

I can't sleep at night

Because of my thought of this new escape.

It is not the same.

I know it well.

It's nothing new.

I hear the same harsh advice from my friends and family.

But all they don't know

Is that it would take forever

For them to understand how I feel.

How I portray myself.