this is the end

ok...it isnt a poem but im pouring everything into this now....I AM DONE!

I have done everything to make everyone smile....what do I get in return?....nothing but pure hurt.....
I listen and don't even put any of my comments out there in FEAR of what others will think....
I AM AFRAID of what would be said and done....
I AM AFRAID of what my family will think of me.....
I hate being afraid and I hate being hurt...
can't I be truthful without all of the negativity? I guess not....
I hate this feeling that I have...
Everything is crashing down around me slowly....
I fear that I might be broken again.....
God, help me

My depression....my anti-social-ness......everything is back from the dark corners....
I cannot afford for this to be happening again.....
When I finally thought that I was happy, there is something that would always bring me back to that one corner that I hate the most....

I have hidden my true feelings, my true emotions and my true thoughts just so people can be happy. Why can't they see that I am speaking up for MYSELF!
Am I really that much of a disgrace?
Am I really that much of a depressed child?
Am I really that much of someone whose words aren't worth hearing?

I AM TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY! NOT YOU!
I AM FED UP WITH EVERYTHING....IT'S TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON AND LEAVE YOU BEHIND.....

this is what i get when i need to let everything out.......Since i cant post this on my own page...here it is...open and free.....i will not stand for the cruelty and unjusticeness anymore.....
i am done