Letter: Death

Dear friend,

 

I sit here and wait for a God to bring me one more chance. I glare into the sky and think upon myself waiting for answers. Here I am looking for a way for allowance for myself. Am I ever going to look pass my depression and feelings? I sit and wonder why I am even trying when I can just end my life with a bullet. I can just go on and not think, not feel, and not even care about anything anymore. I could just say “f**k you” and go on my way.

                There are so many reasons why I am not here today; one is because I couldn’t deal with the fact that someone that I had loved was hurting me deeply. Another reason is because I couldn’t put up with people that were so close to me dying before my eyes. Why did I put up with all the bullshit in my life, maybe it was because I had cared and loved to much.

                Could I have been stronger maybe? Who knows if things in my life would have never happened than I might just be here today. I can’t change the fact what happened through my life. My mom could of helped me just a little with my depression but I can’t blame her for the fact she had to keep care of her kids, her sick husband and go to work. I love my mom with all my heart I would do anything to see her happy but I don’t know how I would do that. I love my family with all my heart but some stuff I just wish had changed. I wish I had never saw my sisters get raped by my cousin, and I wish they didn’t gotten raped. I love them both so much. It been so hard to look pass all the crap that my family had been through.

                So this letter is to inform you that I am gone forever and I am never going to return to this planet that we can earth. I am dead and gone, I am sorry that I had taken my life. There was nothing that I could do. My depression had finally taken over me and this is my last goodbye. Had a nice life and enjoy yourself.   

 

 

 

 

 

Forever dead,

Janice Fronek­