Loser

I sit there watching the walls

No pictures, no color

Blank

Images show up and I try to run away

Trapped, tangeled in my despair

I cry out, but there is no sound

Tears fall, I'm drowning

Rapid strength, everything suffocates

Horror is shown in my eyes

Lifeless body washes ashore

I try to get up once more

Whispers coming from the dark

Closer and closer I feel them breathing

Down my neck and up my spine

Surronded, tormented, judged

Screeching collides with my ear drums

Again, I try to scream

I realize the screeching was my voice

Shocked I can't stop

My chest is cracked open

I can't breathe

Blood gushing out, I can see my heart

Faster and faster, it's popping out

I try to close my eyes, it's all too much

My body is paralized, I can't stop trying

Like a seizure, it doesn't seem to end

Go to a happy place I think

"There is no happy place,"  a cold dark voice infers

"Once a loser always a loser"

Branded on my thigh I see the word "loser"

I scream out, I gave in, "Just make it quick"

"No fun"

Torment is his game

Death by suicide his prize

A knife thrown to the ground, I can move again

But It isn't me

My hand reaches for the blade, I try to fight it off

Tears fall from my souless eyes

The blade in my hands, moving fast towards my heart

I scream, and it stops, with a half second, my life was spared

"You don't want to die?" The cold voice says shockingly

"You have nothing to live for, your just a crazy, lonely, loser"

He screams out and disappears into a million black spikes

The walls come back

The images fade

But the branding is still there

Haunting me everyday