HONESTLY confused..

idk. idk. idk.

I don't think you can be more honest...
But I can't believe you.
It's not that I don't want to...
But you tell me that there are no promises, no guarantees.
So how can you ensure that you really care?
How can I ever get my hopes high enough to believe that without thinking you'll stay?
I can't.
I want to...
She still is more important.
Maybe you don't think so, but I feel it.
Laying next to you, seeing her face straight in front,
knowing that every time we have a phone conversation,
every time I feel close while talking to you,
you're not seeing me, you're looking directly at her.
A memory, a love, something I will never live up to.
I try so hard...to just make memories like she did for you,
but still, it's just me, and something in your heart is disappointed with that...
I'm sorry...
I know you want me to just forget it all,
but you know what?
How can I, when every thought you have is so easily linked to her?
I don't think you'll ever let me forget...
and still, I love you.

Author's Note

Ever feel like second best?

Reviews

[Dream Catcher]

This was honestly amazing Korrin. I relate to this in so many ways, and I understand exactly what your releasing through this. Its a thing that will always be there, and even if you do learn to forget it, it will still haunt you in some way.. =/ But you did very good here showing how this feeling presents itself and how it can make live a living hell. Very good.