And it Returns...

I had been gone for a while cause I found a boyfriend who pulled me out of my depression we were in a long distance relationship, and we broke up, now the pain is back.

The pain had faded,
from my shallow heart,
I found a boyfriend,
I found love,
I discovered a life I didn't know was possible,
the sadness had fled from me,
and was replaced by happy songs,
melodies I had only ever dreamed of,
but now the pain returns,
to fill me once more,
The anxiety,
The depression,
the paranoia,
the ripped feeling,
where everything isn't enough,
where everything will never be enough,
where you feel worthless,
even with every smile I show,
I still feel the weight on my lips,
pulling my smile back into the sadness,
the loneliness,
the destructed part of my heart,
and all because,
your not there anymore.

Author's Note

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