Self-actualized

Suddenly I felt betrayed...& I felt guilty for feeling betrayed...& then I started denying that I felt guilty and betrayed... & then I began to rationalize my feelings of betrayal and guilt...& then I resigned myself to the fact that it was OK to feel guilty and betrayed...That it was not only OK, but it was also a necessary step in the evolution of the examination of my personal quest and understanding for the absolute nature of my individual, spiritual & psychosexual dis-ease...& then it suddenly dawned on me that I had been reading way too many books by Barbra De Angelis.