A Mere Shell of My Former Self

What remains when one leaves an abusive relationship

Our relationship is over
I’m free, no longer trapped
Years of your abuse left me
emotionally handicapped
In front of others you were my defender
Only I knew you are a pretender
Criticism, belittling, rejection, and
disregard I began to expect
Your thoughtless malice slowly
Eroded my self respect
Facing the harsh reality
that I am a mere shell of who I
Used to be
Overwhelmed with distrust, fear and despair
Asking for God’s guidance
Is my daily prayer

Reviews

[willweb]

Asking for God's guidance is always a good way to start but in the end, the decision we have to make we knew all along and it was inside of us...we just needed the courage to do something about it. Sorry, I didn't mean to act like I knew what you were feeling because honestly, no one but you knows that. What a cheer about is, since you have the courage to put it out in writing I assume you took the necessary steps to eliminate the bad situation.

[FlaLover]

Yes I did get out of the abusive relationship years ago. The wounds were deep and I would be lying if I said they have all healed. I am a "work in progress" lol
Thank you for your review and encouragement!

[Redeemed]

Each day offers a renewed hope. May your wombs completely heal and true love finds you again.

[FlaLover]

Even if I never love again I am at peace now

[Curly Grace]

Powerful and honest. Your words capture both the damage and the strength it takes to walk away.

[FlaLover]

Thank you for reading and commenting. It's not been easy but I am so much happier.

[Michael Sun Bear]

So well written that it evokes strong memories and emotions for the reader who has endured that type of relationship. For me it wasn’t a lover, but a parent, and it really left me scarred and handicapped. Eventually being part of a spiritual community and engaging in spiritual practices did help me a lot.

[FlaLover]

Writing about what I have endured has been therapeutic for me. I appreciate your reading and commenting.

[Brandon Houser]

You make me cry. I am glad you can work through such pain with your pen. You are great in letting the reader experience your emotion.

[FlaLover]

Thank you for your compliment. I truly value your opinion.

[Masked writer]

Oh my, this is kinda sad and yet a little relatable... Its well written though..And to be well written one must have been is the situation its self
Original
~M.w

[FlaLover]

Thank you for reading my poem and for the review.
I was in an abusive relationship. I tried to explain some of my feelings I had then. Writing is therapeutic for me.
Thank you again!

[Masked writer]

Your welcome.
You did exactly that..
I believe writing is an outlet for most..
~M.w

[emmajoygreen]

It takes great courage and more to cope with what you have and - what's more, to see it set out before you on screen Facing life and its turmoil takes enormous determination. Wishing you everything you wish yourself, Flal.over.

[FlaLover]

Thank you.
It has not been easy but I am happier and have peace in my life now

[living lavender]

wow. i empathize with you. one can hear the pain in the words.
as well as the sigh of relief that it has finally come an end.
{this was a powerful piece to read and share.}

[FlaLover]

Thank you for the wonderful review! It has been difficult at times. The greatest honor for me would be to have my words help someone else in or was in a similar situation.
I sincerely appreciate your encouragement!

[retreating ghost]

How this person treated you was horrible but you have come to the of tunnel, you see the light ,I hope you
find the strength to build yourself again . Nice poem .
-RG

[FlaLover]

Thank you for your review and encouragement. Some days are easier than others. The real "me" is stubborn and very determined to be victorious! My abuser won several battles but not the war.

[Chris Shaw]

You have escaped the prison and now you must learn to live again. You have courage, you can do it, Small steps at a time.

Chris