Fated End

depressed night

The lightning strikes from the heaven sky

as i lay upon my bed wanting to die

thoughts feel my head only making it worse

will i die slow or will it happen fast

who will be the last person i get to see last

will people miss me or will they celebrate like its new years

my mind comes back from the endless nightmares

eyes open they release a river of tears

i feel empty like each heart beat brings me closer to the void

is this the work of someone that wants me to be destroyed

cause as i get out the bed the feeling of someone taking control of me makes my body grow cold

unable to stop my body makes its way to a razor stained with the blood of a worthless human being my own

i put it to my wrist i have no say of what im about to do but somewhere deep

inside i know it is right

so its true im the one that wants myself to be destroyed

i slit my wrist this must be my fate one that i couldn't avoid

i give up on all thought as i watch the blood flow from my fresh wound

a slow death is something i did not want it needs to be over soon

with control of my body i bring the razor to my throat

a spray of blood initiates the plan  that i intend

as i fall regrets weighing heavy on my chest

....could this be my biggest one o well im already at my end

~Forever TheLoner~