Un-Guardian Angel

................idk bad times / good times/ sad time/yeah u get it

I dedicated the song my guardian angel to you
to show u that im here now matter what you going though
and that I would do anything to make u smile
but now I see I was blinded by my own denial
now I see you in my life wasn't a blessing at all
cause when I told you I loved u I might as well been saying it to a brick wall
no emotion in ur reply just a simple sigh
heart fragile from what it could of ment I didn't do anything exept cry
u might not know it but im always in constant pain
from your image thats burned into all parts of my brain
its a daily struggle just trying to stay sane
but the fucked up part is I still consider you to be a goddess
and I wanna cut ur name into my wrist
just to feel like you will always be here beside me but I resist
i often wish that I was terminaly ill
so make a wish could help a dream of mine become real
to lay on the grass beside u hand in hand and watch a beautiful sunrise
but I know it wont cause my obsesson for you will be my own demise
come to think of it maybe I can watch over you if im dead
that sounds good suicide by shooting myself in the head
...............
i officially think I crossed over into the world of the insane
i guess theres nothing else I can do exept sacrafice my life....but I know even in death....ill still love u reine