My feelings

There is too much emotion inside me to possible be able to write it all out, but here is an attempt. 11-16-11 I am soooo sorry.

I’m so hurt

I never wanted it to end this way

I only wanted to talk, not see your mind sway

I made it worse, which was not my intent

 

I wish you would have listened

To know how I felt

Enemies pitted against me

Left my heart wanting to melt

 

It hurt so much

Cause with a force

We were pulled apart

Never again to feel your touch

 

They keep telling you to be strong

Like it was the right choice

But I can’t help but feel they were wrong

I was begging, begging for you to hold on

 

Enemies pitted against me

Tearing down these walls

I don’t know if you know

I felt like I had to fight

 

That’s why I bull-rushed in

I felt like they were talking for you

Controlling what you say and do

So I had to try and speak with you

 

I know it was your choice

I know that you are strong

But it seemed like only to them

Did you ever listen

 

Everywhere I looked

I see people against us

But now I see my mistake

Cause who I should have looked at was you

 

I don’t know if you knew

That my love for you was true

All I ever wanted to do

Was fight to remain, right beside you

 

Now I know I pushed too hard

I wish I could take it back

And that I would have left

One I reached your yard

 

But I pushed through

To try and talk to you

Which only did more harm

Of which, I wish I could erase

 

I wish you would have talked to me

Tell me of your thoughts

Before the time came

When it was seemingly too late

 

Yes there were mistakes

But perfect, practice makes

Working together towards perfection

That’s what I crave upon reflection

 

I wish I wasn’t so quick to act

Because then maybe I could somehow get you back

I torched the bridge between the gap

Now I fear there is no way back

 

So now I must trust

That the road will wind around

And somehow you will be found

Found to be on my path

 

You tell me to cling to God

But you have no idea

With our Heavenly father I do talk

Praying he would strengthen our walk

 

It hurts me to know that you’ve been hurt

I wish so much that it wasn’t so

But mistakes were made

Rocking our relationship to and fro

 

But to the good I try to cling

Like the days I had you smiling

The days I help you close

Your preciousness wrapped in my arms

 

I commit that to memory

So I wont forget

The days we had together

Those precious days, we had together