Death By Love

A story of virtual reality love affair ending

 

Death by Love

Well, it has finally happened,

I knew it was just a matter of time,

before the walls of Jericho came tumbling down

and crushed my body, my heart, my mind, my soul

our love was not meant to be,

there were too many obstacles

the least being the physical distance between us

the most being we were both already spoken for

we had commitments, we had consciences, we both felt guilt,

you more than I, not that that matters at this point,

we knew that this would or could never be,

but we played this dangerous game of chance anyway,

reveling in our adoration for each others thoughts,

feelings in this pretend game of house

we had our disagreements, we had our arguments,

we kissed and made up, we laughed together, we cried together,

we were deeply in love with each other without ever touching,

we pretended to make love, we bathed in the affection,

the care, the concern we had for each others real lives

I know you will struggle with your decision to end it,

but it was the right thing for you to do, as you had constant

internal struggles between right and wrong, good and evil.

As for me, I don't have a clue how I will survive without your

gentle ways, your wit, your love touching me every day.

Now I sit here hammering this story out, knowing this day would come,

but yet sit here in total shock that it has actually happened.

Right now I am numb, though there are tears running down

my cheeks and it will just be a matter of time when the

finality of this actually registers inside my pathetic brain,

this is not my fear, my fear is when my heart begins to feel the

emptiness that will be left behind. My world has revolved around

our relationship, growing stronger and stronger with each passing day.

How will I ever find a way to replace the hole that will be left

and will grow until I am left with nothing. Can I survive this?

I really do not know. I am afraid that I will be another victim of

death by love. if not physically, then metaphysically I know.

My world ended when I read your last message. The mind sees it,

understands it, but the heart has not yet received the message.

Should I wait or call 911 now?

Gomer Lepoet...

Reviews

[Gandré]

oh this a "help me" poem. I don*t understand bitterness... I never write negative poetry, it is quite difficult for me. I look forward to those positive poems. Thanks for sending this my way.

[Albatross]

You conveyed the emotion perfectly. The deep despair and inadequacy you feel when you loose a loved one. There also seems to be some deeper message, one that I cannot quite reach or convey. Thanks for the read, it was beautiful..

[deeps]

This is wonderful such an enjoyable read.

[Ruth]

Wow, one of your best, to me anyhow lol

There is a depth here that means something different the second time around:)

The final part is excellent! Love, one of the hardest emotions to write about, I love where you took this! xx