Cover Up

Written 5/25/15 I'll block the world out While I'm shutting down too.

Long ago
I buried a mask
That I once wore,
In a grave
Filled with my previous self.

However tonight;
I'm digging that grave site up,
Grabbing that mask
And replacing it back upon my exterior.

If I cannot physically
Run away and disappear
I'll go back to hiding behind
That same facade I once knew.

I'll block the world out
While I'm shutting down too.

Cover up
The ugly.
Cover up
The sad.
Cover up
The chaos.
Cover up

With lies of glad.
[End]

Reviews

[terry smith]

Mask's are a very dangerous piece of apparel... made from the devils skin I guess.

[GreenEyedPoet]

Yea I guess they could be seen as something dangerous. But sometimes they are needed.

[terry smith]

Oh but for the faint of heart...with a mask you only deceive yourself.

[GreenEyedPoet]

Of what? My mask never deceived me - it deceived others which was the point of it. I didn't/don't want people to see what I was going through.

[terry smith]

sorry different kind of mask. I apologize.the mask I was thinking of is the one that makes people think you are one thing when you are another, to deceive , not to protect.

[GreenEyedPoet]

Mine was/is never to deceive, it's always been to protect myself and/or others.

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We all wear masks at some point or another, for a number of reasons... i love the image of burying the mask with your former self... I never looked at it like this when we finally come to terms with who we are and are not afraid to show the world... but sometimes we need that mask so it's best to bury it in shallow ground.... your writes are certainly windows into who you are, Ashley... you put it out there and that means that growth has occurred and that the mask may stay buried for longer periods of time...

[GreenEyedPoet]

You are right, the mask is staying buried for longer periods and maybe one day the mask will stay buried for good. I guess only time will tell though!

[....................]

yes, time has a way of seeing these things through :)...let's hope you can bury it for good sooner than later :D

[GreenEyedPoet]

I had it buried for a while, about a year or so, until I wrote this lol.

[....................]

interesting :)....

[Anne Verona]

It has always been easier to love others, than oneself. And maybe I guess, in all our futile attempts to throw the masks away, that reason is why we put it back on. This poem, again, truly says a lot about that - for me. Amazing work and just brings awareness to what is. I love it. Period :)))))

[GreenEyedPoet]

Though loving myself has always been a big issue for me [and it's something I'm finally trying to work on] that has never been why I wore a mask nor is it why I want to put it back on. I've always wore one as a way to keep people away and to make sure no one knew how I felt/how I think.

As always thank you Anne!
Glad you enjoyed my poem. :]

[Anne Verona]

Hmmm.. An interesting perspective. That is another strong reason to put a mask on. And certainly one reason most people can relate to but never really thought in retrospect about.

No problem :)

[Robert]

That emotion is true emotion. You laid it out there in this piece. Don't block the world out and don't shut down. Open up to the world and .......write.

[GreenEyedPoet]

I'll never stop writing, that's a guarantee. But don't think I can guarantee that I won't block people out or shut down lol.
Thanks for checking out my poem Robert! :]

[K.M]

I love how much deep raw emotion this poem expresses!

[GreenEyedPoet]

Thanks Kenzie!
Glad you liked it. :]

[andrew mitchell]

sometimes a sad poem has that raw deep emotion that makes a great poem!

[GreenEyedPoet]

Raw is what I always try to go for when I'm writing.
Thanks AM! :)

[AaronFreitas]

Wha a deep write Ashley... I loved the descriptions in this write. I have been there blocking everything out of my world just so I can survive. You expressed how dark of a place you truly are in. Great write :)

[GreenEyedPoet]

I'm sorry you've felt this way, I know how much it sucks. :/
But gotta do whatcha gotta do, right?
Thanks for checking it out Aaron!

[AaronFreitas]

No problem... I was wondering where you went and for some reason you weren't on my friends any more so sorry I haven't got to check out your work :)

[GreenEyedPoet]

Well I haven't been around much lately. Kinda been keeping quiet.

[D.T.]

I felt sad from reading this..lol..but it's still really good. Great job! (:

[GreenEyedPoet]

Aw I'm sorry to have made you feel sad!
But thank you for checking it out! :]

[Jamestown]

Well written and expressed!
Relying on our past characteristics is not uncommon:)
The photo or picture is really cool as well,
Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[GreenEyedPoet]

Not uncommon, but in this case, also not such a good idea. *shrugs*
Yea I thought the picture was pretty cool and went well with this when I saw it online.

Thanks for checking it out James. :]

[ANTO]

Going without the mask - going as you are, proved too much, my friend, eh?
Its sad when we can't be ourselves for whatever reason and its hard to admit it - exponentially harder to admit it on here so for what its worth I think its an incredibly brave write despite seeming like the opposite. Great imagery and the concrete poetry mask is very very artistic. Bravo
All the best of luck dear poet.
(thank you Sereena, for the RR)

[GreenEyedPoet]

Going without the mask, or should I say being myself - isn't really the problem here.
It's just that something happened on sat and I don't know how to deal with it, and it's affecting me more then I thought it would. So rather then allowing those around me to see that it's affecting me in a bad way, I'm deciding to shut them out for the time being [putting the mask back on].

I have admitted to WAY more personal things in my poems on here, so this wasn't hard to post lol.

Thanks for the luck ANTO, and for checking it out. :]

[ANTO]

Sorry to hear that my friend. As John Lennon sang "Whatever get you through the night" (or day, I guess)
You're welcome :)

[GreenEyedPoet]

Yup, and that goes with what I always say - gotta do whatcha gotta do.