R.I.P. Adam

A poem for my friend Adam who committed suicide. (September 11,1990-February 14,2008)

I can't begin to describe, I don't know how to say,
Adam, come back to me, I miss you every second of every day.
I don't know why you left without saying goodbye,
But now at the slightest thought of you, I can do nothing but cry.
I can't believe all this time you were gone, I never knew,
Now I'm so broken without you, I don't know what to do.
I know you loved me and us not dating caused you pain,
I can't help but just break down and take all the blame.
But I know your place in heaven is a happier one to be,
Adam, I hope your one of the angels that love and watch over me.
You made others so happy even if happiness was something you lacked,
Please Adam...I love you...please come back.

~Rachel B. Spiers~

Author's Note

I was hurting when I wrote this....and I don't care about the mistakes....just lemme know what ya think :]

Reviews

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

First of all this is an exellent writing, you clearly show your emotions and the pain of losing your friend. Please do not blame yourself for what he did. I know the pain of losing someone to suicide. I also know what it feels like to carry the guilt. I did for years until I finally realized no one can control another person's actions. My son was killed by a drunk driiver just a year ago, I blame the drunk driver because he made a foolish decision that night which resulted in the death, I went through the what if's... What if I had done this or done that? What if? There are no right answers. Only time can heal our hearts and our wounds.
Peace and prayers to you. Debileah

[Poeticpiers]

your pain is obvious but why accept blame that is not yours.Your friend made his choice for whatever reasons. You will never know what made his mind up. All you an do is accept his decision as what he wanted and get on with your own life