Across the Room

My mama always told me, 

You never truly love a man,

Unless you can list more than five things 

That you love about him if he was a room away from you. 

I always started with I love the way I feel when im with him. 

And she said no, real reasons. 

Today I walk in the door, 

A smile bright and wide and tears slipping down my face.

“I love his smile, 

The way his eyes glistens in the sun. 

I love the way he stands, 

As he stands so accomplished and proud. 

I love the way he laughs, 

As it lights darkest skies up, 

I love the sound of his voice, 

As it makes me feel at peace with myself. 

I love the way that he 

As his smile melts my heart 

Because it could light the earth for a trillion years. 

I love the way he looks at me. 

As I feel like I am, for once in my life time, special.  

I love the feeling of comfort, safety, stability

As I am within his presence.”

Tears streaming down my face

“As you always told me there’s more to love then just the outside. 

As I love the way I feel when I’m around him, 

The sense of life and adventure. 

I love the laughs that he does, even though we both know those jokes aren’t funny. 

As It makes me smile because he knows that it makes me feel a bit more happy. 

I love the way he wipes my tears away 

And tells me everything is alright. 

As He has been there to help me slay demons, right by my side. 

I love the way he encourages me, 

To live my passions and my dreams 

Even when I feel like giving in, he pushes me to stand on my feet again. 

Mainly I love the fact that he’s more than my lover, he’s truly my best friend. “

As that list goes on and on.

The tears coming down like rain,

“Only thing I hate about him, 

I am terrified of messing up, not being good enough. 

I am terrified that one day, he will realize that I am not good enough to be his one and only. 

That he will pack up his bags and leave me. 

I am scared of losing the one true man I put my heart into, 

The one I never gave up on, 

The one I shared memories with, 

Told secrets with, 

Gave him the most special things that I could give. 

As one day I am scared that I will be a room away, 

And he wouldn’t be able to say the five things he loves about me.”