Bipolar

self reflecting

My heart drowns in pain because of my decisions. 

I even feel the pain of my attackers, from adolescence. 

I now create all of my incisions. 

I  can’t breathe, My heart, oh my heart, it will lose feelings 

I see nothing left for me.  

All the lies I honestly told myself  

I haven't inhaled  after the exhale.

Surely I know this is my hell. 

The hell in my head became truth to myself. 

 You took me through pain I can not describe. 

Some nights I begged and hoped to die. 

I’m not sure of myself, where do I run? 

I wished I hated you 

you turned into this demon. 

 Instead I am looking foolish, 

when you ask for me to run?   

The embarrassment of yesterday is home. 

you made me question, what did I do wrong ? 

How could I cause this pain on my own? 

You made life hard. .

It hurts, not the typical love anyone would know. 

 I really wished my heart didn’t have a beat.

 Now it's time for me to go.

 Off to hell 

I know that I am mentally ill. 

I say this while looking in the mirror 

reflecting on myself. 

-Brianna Rodriguez

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

"Surely I know this is my hell.

The hell in my head became truth to myself.

You took me through pain I can not describe.

Some nights I begged and hoped to die. "

[Sami Khalil]

Bipolar condition is hard indeed. Makes our life hell on earth indeed. Mood swings, depression, insecurity, low self-esteem. You touched on all those symptoms. Thank you for raising the awareness.

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

My new friend, this was one powerful write! The deep emotions could be felt! Bipolar is an awful illness and you expressed it in depth!

[Harmony.Txx]

Yes my friend, bi polar is very awful. This I wrote during my depression season. I want to reach those who feel, no one understands. Until he or she reads my poems. I completely understand.. and its going to be okay. Thank you for you time and review!

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

My pleasure!