Self sabotage

A Poem by Harmony.Txx

I long to go home
is it
my time yet?
I crave my peace
better yet,
just some relief.
From myself
Goddamn,
this mental disease.
OCD
Unawarely,
taking control
of me.
Confused,
who is this I see?
A complete stranger,
staring back at me.
Deception creeping,
poisoning me,
internally.
It only hurts
when I breathe.
I’m decaying,
can’t you f*****g see?!
Save me from
myself,
intrusive thoughts
screaming,
F**k !
just kill yourself!!!
Lost in my mind,
I feel like a prisoner
physically trapped
and paralyzed.
Watching time race by,
No feelings
to show,
It is out of
my control!
This is where I conveniently,
Got to go…
-Brianna Rodriguez