Starstruck

what I felt when I saw you, my love

At first you were just a friend 

I kid myself saying that though 

Cuz i think even then i knew 

that i f***ing loved you 

Still do 

For better or worse

My friend introduced you to us at our lunch table 

And your name was melodic like a song I knew I’d sing 

Evermore

We had an arts class together and 

You gave me candy and sweets 

and we laughed and talked 

You were (are) girly and feminine with curves that make me blush 

Cuz when we hugged your breasts were just above my face cuz you were (are) taller than me and I shouldn’t have been thinking that lewdly  

But i did 

I loved you 

Still do 

Blushes arose when we walked into class together and you gave me that smile that made my stomach 

Feel like churning butter 

That smile that made me feel warm for the rest of the day

You became my muse 

And I’d write poems about you

(Still do) 

And draw you

(Still do) 

And think about you running up ahead of me in a field of grass 

(Still do) 

When you, my raven 

Hung out with the populares 

I felt betrayed cuz they were absolute jerks to me 

And whispered about you 

And eventually you learned that I loved you 

(Still do) 

Oops 

That wasn’t in the plan 

I didn’t mean to 

Make you shift uncomfortably 

And sweat when I smiled at you 

Or move seats when i drew you 

I… didn’t mean to make you sad, my love 

But i don’t regret that I fell in love with you ad I don’t regret the sadness 

You’ve wrought upon me when you started ghosting me 

And I don’t regret that I am upset but trying to move on 

Though it feels like I’m wading through molasses 

I do try 

And i don’t regret the times we shared 

And I still love you and will forever see you 

In my dreams when you kiss me fervently 

In my memories of our friendship 

And a one-sided love 

In my drawings of my muse 

(That’s you) 

In the magnolia tree of which i seek comfort from 

In the eyes of a doe 

And in the feathers of a raven 

Though i try to move on 

I’ll always have a fresh wound from you 

A special place in my heart 

That’s only you-sized  

 I will always feel starstruck like the first time I met you 

When I felt a magnetic pull 

I’ll always love you, 

My raven 

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[Noah]

Sorry, another long one!! How did YOU feel when you thought you met the love of your life but they didn’t love you back? Answers, comments and reviews below! Let’s try to keep it civil and kind, though.