Eat

A Poem by Noah

For those of us who have trouble eating or have eating disorders and are undiagnosed; this is for y'all. Also, my Chinese zodiac is a rabbit 🐇

Sitting in the backyard surrounded by purple flowers and green leaves and white daffodils, a little safe haven for rabbits like myself who nibble, can't eat whole, barely bite food. My mom calls me and yells at me for not eating, tells me I'm working myself into neurodivergence but I silently wonder if I was neurodivergent before and she hates that her kid might be 'special'. "Kid", "child", "daughter", never "son". I'm too stressed, depressed, repressed, conforming to her and everyone else to be happy and at the end of the day, I'm never enough. I don't like eating. I feel gross and I could never eat a full plate. It's always half or a quarter. She says that I'm an attention seeker. I nod and listen to music, wishing for sleep, night, love. Things that'll never come. Not to me, at least.