Exist Anymore

I don’t want to exist anymore

 

I can’t take the pain

 

All my life it has been there

 

I have never felt like I have belonged

 

Doesn’t help that I am constantly pushed away

 

I am always the burden on someone

 

Wish I could disappear, not like I will be missed

 

Waited for love, tried to attain it

 

Love doesn’t want me

 

Every day that pasts, just going through the motions

 

Life is pointless like this, what can I do though

 

Not strong enough to knock myself off

 

Guess I will continue to hide my depression as much as I can

 

And put on a fake smile, so everyone will think I am happy

 

Getting very good at pretending,

 

Pretending I know how to play, Life’s fucked up game.

Reviews

[Veronica Franco]

I'm ok 14 years later. Crazy re-reading my mindset then

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

very sad but brave poem, I really felt your pain, I know that feeling so well. things will changed , soon you will find your love, and anything will change for good , you must belive in that ... I know its hard to imagine it right now .... Yossi