Feelings of being Brave

I am not brave

Never have been

Never will be

I have tried my best

Best to stay strong

But it is no use

It took me years

Years to become who I am today

All brave and strong

In my mental state

I could not take what people said to me

I was really hurt by many people

My dad for not really wanting to spend time with me and living in another country,"work"

An ex friend who I have known for 9 years and say I was never important to him

And other bullying me about my looks

I can't believe I have not died yet

But it took me this long

This long to figure out that

Those words mean nothing

They are only opinions

I never had enemies and will not start to have any

I love everyone that I communicate with

But I can't understand why I am not loved

What happens when I am gone
Will I be loved then

I do leave

At time

That I am empty

I cannot take pressure anymore

I just hope that

When I go to university in September

I will find

Find my sense of belonging

I just would like to say to those people

That are mentioned above

You have broken the trust

I have given to you

I cannot trust you any longer

I cannot love you as much as I once did

I cannot understand what I did to deserve this pain

I cannot continue with this pain in my chest

I am better off without you and whatever you have to offer 

There is no time left for me to mourn

Over your judgments about me

I am one step closer to recovering

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Come a time we must stand our ground and accept what we need.
"I just would like to say to those people
That are mentioned above
You have broken the trust
I have given to you"
Trust is hard to gain and easy to lose. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Abdul Batin Osman Bey]

very cool poem that is very insightful to how your mind works and how you see yourself within the world. Keep writing.

[Leslie Philibert]

nice, personal write; well penned..