Not Knowing

 

I don't quite

Know

How to tell you

That instead of

Feeling nothing

I feel all too well while

The pain and anger

Swell inside,

And as usual

I'm at a loss

For words

As you look me

In the face

Awaiting an answer.

I don't quite

Know

How to tell you

That instead of

Feeling happy

I want it all

To end.

Not us...

Just the memories

Of horrid days

and staring at the wall.

And as usual

I'm at a loss

For words

As you look me

In the face

Awaiting an answer.

I don't quite know

How to tell you

That instead of living

All I can do is

Mourn the thing

I threw away.

I don't know

How to tell you

That I need you

More than air

More than I've

Ever needed anything else...

And as usual

I'm at a loss for words

As you look me

In the face

Awaiting an answer.

I don't quite know

How to tell you

That that huge decision

You left me to make

Alone...

I now regret.

That...I wanted to know

How you felt

Looking at your computer screen

...Whilst the world was falling down around me.

And as usual

I'm suddenly at a loss for words

As you stare me down

Awaiting an answer

That I just can't give you

For fear that

It won't be enough;

I won't be enough...

Monday June 29th, 2009

2:27am

Reviews

[Chris Parker]

I like this poem it reminds me of a heartbreak Ive resently gone throu.