The Oath

back when i was with Melissa and we were in love then the c**t ditched me for a friend of ours that can down dropped to a knee and proposed and she accepted so f**k him f**k her ^_^

The Oath

 

　

　

I’m glad I make you blush it shows that I can leave you in spellbinding bewilderment.

 

I am sorry for betraying your heart so long ago if I had only realized you wanted me for more than sex and I felt that our first night together.

 

When you caressed my left cheek with a soft kiss all I could feel was trust on your lips and that made me happy.

 

To see your eyes so big and bright at the altar shinning with joy choked tears made me realize how much you love me and want me by your side eternity incarnate.

 

Then you surprise me with your little erotic tendencies and prowess in bed and I love it but as long as you play gentle I won’t stray from your embrace.

 

　

I can tell you apart from your astral spirit you don’t want kids but your astral spirit wants that and nothing would make me happier not to mention dragging me away from the cliffs of suicide than to have something to call my own and be able to say "Yeah that’s my kid my flesh and blood look what we’ve created"

 

You say you want me to come down to you but I don’t know for some minor issues the first one being I’m content where I’m at no offense it’s just the last girl who said she was coming to see me ended up in a car wreck and died so yeah....... I really don’t know.

 

Honestly I’m really fucked up from seeing my six year crush and you say you’ll come up and see me after Florida but if you don’t then I’ll understand I’m used to being played and left high and dry just please don’t be like that I have many problems with insecurity.

 

　

I want you I need you and when your in my bed every night sorrow filled or turned on the best part of it is the cuddling.

 

It keeps me content and lets me know that I’m safe cause it’s all I need is held at night.

 

If you give me My December and Leave Out All The Rest I’ll be there.

 

When I say give me two years and I’ll give you forever it’s what I mean and yes this is what love is so I hope we never wake up :)

 

I see you for you even though most of you is kept in the dark my little anita blake.

 

My bubble bath dynamo...............

 

Don’t leave me hanging by this moment when I want you so much it kills me deep inside.

 

The way I feel is betrayed and discarded when you’d rather rp than talk to me.

 

I know I’m gonna be number 2 when it comes to family and such but with rp it hurts.

 

Don’t stop when I say please from the electric fleece texture of your skin when we embrace early morning.

 

There’s so much more to me than you see.

 

Just look into my heart and ask with your eyes what they feel.

 

I mean hell you’re the first good thing in my life that’s positive since three years ago.

 

To show you what eternal love is would be calling my phoenix out to forever kindle our passion through the sands of time.

 

There’s a reason for why I am surrounded by darkness I was hurt deeply so I am hesitant to let most people in but as long as you keep your flashlight attached to your head you’ll find me everytime.

 

If it embarrasses you that I got congestive heart failure I’m sorry can’t help it just don’t flip out when it acts up just cause we had good hot sex.

 

If I knew being with you would heal it hell I’d pour my pills away but sadly enough, it don’t work that way.

 

How do I say I love you when the most I want of you is to be held and cuddled.

 

Cause in all honesty that’s my ultimate security blanket at night: your embrace.

 

In your arms I’m safe, protected, comfy, and I sleep like a baby every night but when you pull away it’s harder to sleep at night.

 

True it is that your not Amy but I swear you’re not a quick fix to heal my wounded soul.

 

Amy is a fictitious character I wrote up in one of my stories and since 2002 I’ve been trying to stay focus on her face cause she’s unique.

 

She’s part of what’s holding me together because I know to lose her would drive me insane and hollow out my heart forever.

 

The second part holding me together is my now seven year crush on another girl who doesn’t even know of it so meh V_V I don’t care but still something pulls me to her but I don’t pursuit cause it’s pointless.

 

The third part holding me together would be your love for me :) and I cherish that more than you’ll ever know because you’ve done so much for me and shown me many impossibilities that give me hope for the day we can really be together.