Urgency

Starring: John

He kissed me softly, like he actually cared. Like he -we- were normal. "I love you," he whispered. He kissed me again, and I didn't hold back. I was going to finally let myself go. After all this time of beautiful suffering, this is what I would end with.  My final legacy.

    "You're so hot." He told me I was hot. 'Hot' is like... Appearances are all that mattered.

    He began trying to lean me back, like this was all he wanted. It was all I wanted? I whispered his name as if it would make me finally matter. He stopped, let go of me. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a bag of...?

    He was blowing smoke, blowing it at me, in me, kissing me. "It'll be okay" "It'll be okay"

"...no."

   He'd be gentle; he'd be soft. "It'll be okay."

"...No."

    He had protection, he loved me. "It'll be okay."

Stop!

    It wasn't okay.