Days in Hell

Stupid. Freak. Punk. Loser. Gay. Dumb A*s. Retard.

These words reverberate in my head while drudging home after another normal day at school.

F****t. Idiot. 
Alone.

My Mom`s "New School, New You" plan didn't work as I told her a million times.

But of course she didn't listen.

No one ever listens to me.
Because I`m different.

Because I`m
A Failure. Obnoxious. Quiet. A Loner. Atheist. Liberal. Emo. Lanky.

My name is Conner, and this is my life. 

My name is Conner, and no one will miss me.

I walk through the halls, late again.
No one even noticed. My excuse was that I forgot my math homework, I haven`t used that one in a while.
I`m usually late for 1st period on Mondays, that way I can avoid having my face plunged into a toilet by him. His name is Jacob, and he is my Superior, as he likes to make me say. 

He is the bane of my existence.
He is my "bully". 

His excuse is, "I`m only jokin'" to any who asks.
I do his homework, pay for his food, take his punches, normally to the stomach and back. But if I forget the homework, then "I go to the ocean". He makes me take my clothes off so when I get home they will be dry. And my excuse is "hard day at gym class" for when my mom asks.

I don`t know if my mom cares, or even knows. 
And speaking of my mom, I have to tell Jacob about how much I hate her, and I have to joke about my Dad`s death. These are the worst days for me.

Until One Day.

I walk into class. I see Him. 
I snap. I break away. 
I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
All my pain, all my suffering, for him.
Dissipated in two loud bangs.

He was the bane of my existence.
But now, He and I are in better places.

Author's Note

Please don`t sugar coat what you think please. I only want what you honestly feel about the writing

Reviews

[song writer]

I get really sad emotions from this. Pain and suffering should not happen to any of us but it does, this makes us suicidal at times and I love that you portrayed that. I also liked that you put on something that is happening now school shooting. I just wish this kind of stuff didn't happen its so sad and hard for me to talk about or write about so bravo for doing just that. One thing though please try to make something more full of life, something happy or just something mildly sad. I am not a big fan of depressing things it makes me sad.

[Courtney Rose]

Love it. So much emotion, I can feel the pain. Again love it!

[April Fools.]

This is beyond powerful. I absolutely love it. It has raw emotions, in a nondestructive way. It's beautiful!

[Andrea]

Deep feelings. He finally decided to end it at the end. Some people give up because it gets that bad. Your home life and school life are miserable. You have no where to run. You can't escape the noise, so you become rebellious.

[John E. O'Brien]

I was never bullied this bad, but I've definitely had inner monologues similar to what this character has went through. Nice story, liked the format, it definitely added to the flow.

[John Ryan]

Thank you sir. I really appreciate it.

[Kristina Moulaison]

Oh ouch! This is raw brother. I normally want to separate a writer from their work and realize they are all just characters, but this makes me want to just hug whoever wrote it and assure them I love gay, emo, liberals. I do actually, just sayin'. :) In the beginning it reminded me of high school where I would just hide in the bathroom before class and do shots so I could face math class. I loved the line " he is my superior" because only scared little boys act this way, those who feel superior to no one, so... great line. The end is honest and scary and frighteningly sad. I'm glad I am reading this on cyber paper and not in the paper. All this to say, well done! Taken as a work of fiction this is a beautifully described and penned description of real emotion, down to the making him take off his clothes and what he would tell his mother. The fact that I want to call 911 means you accomplished your goal here I'm guessing. Really good!

[John Ryan]

Thank you very very much for your review.
i adapted this from a former piece i wrote.
im kind of afraid of what you would do to the paper if you ever somehow meet me in real life! ha ha JK
I really appreciate your review again. Thank you thank you thank you!

[Kristina Moulaison]

You told me to be honest. :) I promise no swat teams will be sent to surround you...imminently. You have a good 15 minutes I would say.

[John Ryan]

ha ha ha. Thats 14 more than i need!

[Kristina Moulaison]

Excellent, armed and you have your bug out bag at the ready. I'm so encouraged!