Beyond Repair

I'm tired of this fighting that goes on inside of me.

Every day I hope someone will be able to see

The torment that consumes me

I go on with this false hope

Fake smiles just so I can cope

I tell myself it will be all right

But that dream is so far out of sight

Gone beyond repair

I like to blame others saying it's not fair

But I know when I look in the mirror

Things seem to get a little clearer

I will never let them know

I will never let them see

It's not them I hate, it’s me.