Saddened

A poem about 2010-2011

It saddens me, to know that what I used to have is gone.

It depresses me, when I find out I'm alone again. 

Once in my grasp, promising never to flee-

Now despises the very essence of me. 

I feel nothing but an agonizing pain.

Suddenly numbness doesn't seem so disdained. 

Distance and Memories all wiped away.

I wish I was not at this disastrous fray. 

The Temptress curses me, still, every second. 

To It, she beckoned... 

I wish I could turn back the clock-

To the time when I was genuinely content.

And my life seemed more magical than my dreams.

My fantasies...

The solitude wraps around me like a Devil's Claw. 

The pain in my heart-the shatter of my soul. 

It is as if Lucifer was living in there. 

Torturing me;Eating me... 

Slowly killing me. 

Inside Out... 

It saddens me, to know that its all gone.

It angers me, to know that everything has been wasted...

It makes me cold-

And the dent of bone that once felt so homey. 

Now a bittersweet memory. 

And those once cold hands-the once warm canvas...

Ripped away from my senses. 

I can no longer feel them. 

And the emptiness in my soul, claims to reside there forever. 

It saddens me;

to know that its the End.