Girls in Society

society in this day leaves girls with only one option: be perfect or be judged and I am tired of it.

They say girls who cry themselves to sleep are strong, if so why do I feel so weak right now? 
I don't want to be the girl who cries when you lose interest.
I don't want to be the girl who replies in a minute when you take an hour.
I don't want to be the girl who will do almost anything for you while you will do almost nothing for me. 

I don't want to still love you after you have moved on.

I don't want to be the ugly girl.
I don't want to be the friend who stands in the back because there isn't enough room.
I don't want to see that you read and ignored my message again.
I don't want to be the girl who has black mascara running down her cheeks.
I don't want to be the dressed up girl with no where to go.
I don't want to be the girl with no thigh gap.
I don't want to be the girl who flinches when she looks at the scale.
I don't want to be afraid of feelings.
I don't want to be the girl who falls too hard. 

I don't want to miss you.

I don't want to be attached to you.
I don't want to be pushed away.
I don't want to stay up all night thinking about you.
I don't want to constantly miss my grandparents.
I don't want to regret my past.
I don't want to be that girl who hasn't had her first kiss yet.
I don't want to be a nerd.
I don't want to be fat.
I don't want to be unwanted.
I don't want to have a messed up, broken family.
I don't want to be the girl who bottles everything inside.
I don't want to tell you I'm ok or that I am fine when I'm not.
I don't want to live in fear of other peoples judgement. 
I don't want to be the girl crying herself to sleep. 
I don't want to be the girl who hugs herself wishing it was your arms around her. 
I don't want to be the girl who tries to stay clean but fails.
I don't want to be ignored.
I'm the girl who learned that In this world, we don't always get what we want.

-Jennifer Kurack

Author's Note

Tell me what you think so I can improve please! I know that it isn't very good