The price of holding on

Holding on to love has a pricy cost, emotions flare and one can only give in to the ultimatum

It all started with one goal in mind , living in fairy tales and dreaming of a king rescuing his queen from her utter doom. For some reason at first it all made sense we got so used to fairy tales where the princess finds her prince. But the reality of the real world is that it doesn’t work that way. One can only dream. What was the price to pay for holding on you may ask, it’s too much to bear at times. While on the outside you may seem like this jolly and outgoing personage who has everything figured out in this world, but the reality of that is that on the inside you’re a ticking time bomb ready to explode any minute, any second and in any day.

 

What may have caused that you may ask. Well, here is what happened in the mist of the real world. You come from a broken relationship or sometimes just someone you met and you supposedly loved, and they break your heart with words actions and everything in between.

Then you meet the one! Who later in life makes you reminisce why you left the first one. Only this time does your heart get completely broken because the feeling of this one really loves me and will never hurt me comes to mind. But you still hold on to that “maybe he will love me again” or “maybe he will change “or “maybe he is just confused”.

The reality is that he doesn’t love you anymore, he wants to experience other worlds without you. He wants nothing with you.  And this battle between your mind, body and soul takes place. Now you’re fighting for yourself wondering what you did wrong, trying so hard not to let go. Now you know that you lost that person and as much as you want them back. They just don’t care about you. They just don’t want you. But you still hold on only because you still love this person. But what does that cause? Anguish, anxiety, and loneliness. It’s tough now because the battle became real.

 

How to let go! How can I move forward, the reality has sunk in.  The heart races 1000 beats per minute. The love of what your life was had made it clear they want nothing to do with you they want to be free as a bird . Once again, the fight and struggle continue. Sleepless nights, remembering a past where you were taken to heaven and back. Where you knew this was your forever king.

The price of holding on caused so many scars internally and exteriorly. The fights with your mind, body and soul continue to haunt you as time passes. At the end you knew you had to let go. With time holding on, it only made the pain deeper until it became unbearable.

 

And it was at this point where the heart said to the mind we need to fight back and let go if not it’s going to consume us and there will be nothing left of us.

 

The time came where there was only one right choice … letting go and letting time heal those deep wounds that no man can ever heal. As time progressed those sleepless nights and feelings of anguish started to fade away. The morning sunshine started to feel different.  Something internally has changed. A feeling of hope and happiness starts to arise from deep into your soul. The power of letting time heal the wounds have taken effect and as time progressed the price of holding on seemed too pricy to pay.