Sometimes I'm blue, but still I want you

I write this while watching a video of a calm sea but with a little waves during sun set. I super love that scene but suddenly while looking at it I became frightened. Still Iove it.

You were my safe haven
Seeing you from a far
Always makes my heart skip
A beat

I am confused, why?
You called me?
I heard you, and yet
You act so deeply vague.
Your secrets, can't you
Let me know?

I am desperate, why?
You are my peace then,
But now the horizon
Makes me wanna run

What happened? How?
Your waves that touches
me, it scares me now.

No, don't go, I still know
I want to stay
Even from a far
Even just the reach of my eye
I still want you
Even if I'm blue

Author's Note

Let me know your feelings while reading this. All comments are welcome.