Love, sweet agonizing love

"love is all you need", a song which was sung by the masters of music, the legendary Beatles. Love ruined me but also made me who I am. Love can be the best thing in your life or the worst thing in your life. This emotion is so powerful it can conquer both your mind and heart without any competition. It can heal a broken heart or destroy a healed one. It can bring you tears of joy, but can also bring you tears of sadness. Love is just a word to some, but to me, love is the most powerful thing I have ever experienced. This "word" has changed me in so many ways, I used to be careless and selfish until I experienced love, now I can't go a day without thinking about the people I love, I always wonder if they're okay, if they're happy, sometimes I wonder if they feel the same way. You just want them next to you, so you can protect them and nourish them all the time.  Love eats me up and spits me back out. Love keeps me up at night, It keeps my mind racing, it keeps it pacing. They say Love only affects the heart but it has also affected my mind because there is not a time where I think the girl I loved wasn't mine. This feeling destroys me but also rebuilds me, sometimes I can't take it and sometimes I want it it to take control of me and do whatever it pleases. Love is confusing, I don't know what to do with it, do I use it? do I abuse it? or do I toss it out the window and never go near it again. I wish I can give you a clear definition of Love but I can't, words can't explain this feeling, its a feeling of euphoria but that can change in a instant, love is like a roller coaster, you reach the top and become amazed by its view but it falls back down and it falls fast. I myself am currently in love and love it, but sometimes I wish I wasn't and that's where the confusion comes to play, I simply just don't know what to do. Love, sweet love you've giving me too much to deal, I believe in you, I know true love is real but its also breaking my heart, its too much to deal but I love the feel. Love beautiful Love, its all I need but its also the last thing I need.