Mine

I lie in bed watching the sun rise
And as I turn to the other side
I see a wall instead of your eyes
Reminding me.... you truly died
Why can't I rewind time
And go back to when all was fine
I ache to see that smile you made when I called you mine
I yearn to see the back of your head when we waited in lines
I miss touching the goosebumps I made on your spine
You were the one I wanted to marry and I knew this by age nine
And how can I forget the first time
You spoke to me while waiting in line
Noticing my band aid and asking me if I was fine
I knew from that moment it was a sign
That you were truly gonna be mine
But now I sit here and have my thoughts intertwine
Forcing me to abuse alcohol and wine
Drunk, hoping the stars align
Hoping the Gods entwine
Hoping.... praying.... begging they bring back whats mine