This River is Wild

 

Staring out into the night

I cannot help but think of you;

Of all the times spent together

And all the awesome things we used to do.

 

I feel emotions

Building up inside.

My tears give away

The pain I try to hide.

 

Talking about you seems so hard -

I cannot stop the tears falling from my eyes.

It seems that each time I mention you

There's nothing I can do but cry.

 

He asks me why

I feel this way.

I wish I knew

Just what to say.

 

Spending time with a therapist

Trying to explain how I feel,

Just keeps reminding me

That all this hurt is real.

 

I suddenly burst out

In uncontrollable tears.

Crying in front of someone -

One of my worst fears.

 

"He's just not worth it,"

Colin gently says to me.

"He will never be the one

Who will make you truly happy".

 

Again I start to cry -

He speaks the truth.

Of your feelings for me

There is no proof.

 

My tears, a river so wild,

Ceases to come to an end.

I cannot do this anymore -

I can no longer pretend.

 

You don't love me -

I don't think you ever did.

Of this pain

I want to be rid.

 

As I wipe away the tears

With the tissue handed to me,

I remove the 'love dust' from my eyes

And now, I can finally see.

 

No more pain.

No more lies.

These tears are last

That'll fall from these eyes.

 

CopyrightJosieWentzel12October2007