I Don't Want to be In Love

I lay awake all night last night

Just pondering the thought of you.

I thought about the first time we met;

That first time our eyes connected;

That time you put your hand on my leg;

When you smiled at me, those blue eyes shining.

All these images of you kept running through my mind;

Kept leaving trails of wet memories running down my face.

 

Lying there, staring up at the ceiling,

I remembered the feel of your arms around me,

The thrill your strong embraced brought on.

I could just about feel the force

Of your hungry kisses on my lips.

Then the painful recollections,

Burned at my heart inside –

The wet memories ran down my face again.

 

Rolling over onto my side,

I realised that I am in love with you;

That these recollections and painful memories

Are all brought on by my feeling for you.

It’s the pain of not being able to have you;

The heartache of not seeing you any more;

Of not being allowed to love you

The way my heart wants to.

 

Closing my eyes,

Willing all the images of you to disappear,

I feel the trails of wet memories

Tracing their way down my face once again.

I don’t want to have to hurt like this over you.

I don’t want to have to beg for your attention.

I don’t want to have to feel like this anymore.

I don’t want to be in love…

 

Copyright©JosieWentzel04January2008

 

Reviews

[An owl on the moon]

These reflections are filled with such beautiful pain. You have created a world of deep experience, sensing your passion and the turmoil that often rises with love and loss. So strong!