It's Not So Bad

Blegh

Sent January 22nd, 2015

Dear Alice,

It's been two months but you still didn't call or write. I left my new home address and my new number at the bottom of the last e-mail. Sorry, I have dyscalculia, so the numbers must have been all jumbled up. Anyways, f**k it, what's life like at Clemson University? Do they have everything you wanna study? Did you make new friends? Hey, sorry if I'm asking too many questions. Haha, I probably sound like your mom. This may sound creepy, but I have a lot of your pictures on the wall from when you were in highschool too and we hung out a lot. What can I say? I'm your best friend :D 

Please, write back

Lots of love,

Your best friend, Kevin <3 :) 

Sent February 14th, 2015

Hey Alice,

Back when you actually sent me (lol I'm not that mad) e-mails you said we could meet up at Sandhills Mall yesterday. Guess who waited 7 hours in the rain? I had presents and stuff and I was waiting in front of Books-A-Million, where we used to meet all the time. If you didn't wanna meet up, that's fine, I just think it's a little fucked up how you didn't tell me you couldn't be there.Maybe next time, huh? Changing the subject, I picked up a new habit. Sometimes I like to cut myself and watch the blood. It's a bit of an adrenaline rush. Try it!

Write back when you can :3 

A lotta love,

Your best friend Kevin :) :* <3 

Sent April 7th, 2015

Hey Ms. I'm Too Cool For My Best Friend!

This is the very last e-mail I'll send your stupid a*s! I spent days and nights wondering how to make you love me like I do! I hope you know I took all your pictures off the wall and ripped them up and burned them! Think! We coulda been together! Happy with a family!!! Well it's too late now! And all I wanted was for you to write back! And maybe tell you how you feel! It's too late for that s**t! I took my moms meds and I downed Bailey's! I hope this eats at your conscience and you can't stand it! 

Your ex friend, KEVIN!!!

Sent April 7th, 2015 

Hey, Kevin

Sorry, it's been a while. College life is sooooo hard XP but I'm doing good. I don't mean to be rude but you should get some help, man. That cutting stuff just isn't you. I'm soooo sorry I couldn't meet you a few months ago. And what's with the messages with "<3". Kevin, I think that time is over. Hang on, I got another e-mail from you haha....oh s**t Kevin....you're dead...

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I

Got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window

And I can't see at all

And even if I could it'll all be gray

But your picture on my wall

It reminds me, that it's not so bad

It's not so bad

 

Author's Note

Blegh